Well here it is 2 weeks before Christmas and I am totally down in the dumps. This is the first time that I can not afford to buy my kids anything for christmas, I can't afford one single thing and it hurts sooooo bad. I have really been down in the dumps lately and there's more to it besides not having anything for my kids for christmas, but I'm not going to vent that right now, and it's causing me to not be able to focus completely on my schoolwork.
Grades are a huge deal to me, going back to school is a big deal for me. I barely graduated high school so entering college and getting good grades are a big deal now. School isn't starting off too well for me. I have major issues focusing, absolutely hate algebra (can't see why I have to take it, but whatever), I somehow completely forgot about an english assignment that was due back in Unit 1 and failed my unit 2 anatomy and physiology exam. OK that failure wasn't entirely my fault, my in-laws decided to stop by as soon as I started the exam and even though I told them I was in the middle of a test they insisted on trying to talk to me while I'm trying to focus on the test. I got a 60%, I was devastated. I wasn't expecting 100% to begin with but an 80%-90% would have been better but a 60% just added to my depression. I am not expecting to graduate with a 4.0 GPA but I do expect to graduate with darn good grades. President's List first term, Dean's List second term and now taking honors classes. I want to keep my grades up. Maybe I should stop stressing about my grades and just do the best I can with what I have.
Things have to get better, they say things always get worse before they get better. I'm hoping that is true because with everything that is going on I don't know how much more I can take before I completely break.