Being an online student.

When I first enrolled in Kaplan back in July, I thought it was one of the greatest things I have ever done. I knew online schooling would be perfect for me because I could get my education and still remain at home with my kids. I could work on my assignments and attend seminars while my girls were in school. I could work on my homework at my convience and didn't feel as pressured as I would if I were attending a campus school. I loved school back then. I flew through the first term with a 4.0 in each class, got myself on the President's list, I was invited to sign up for honors classes ( which I did), I felt great. Then somewhere during the second term something started to change. I started to become really depressed and stressed at situations that were (and still are) occurring at home. I started to struggle with my classes. Absolutely hated my english class, called my academic advisor wanting to drop the class 3 weeks before the term ended, luckily she wouldn't let me withdrawl from the class and somehow, someway (not sure how) I managed to pull my english grade up from a 70% to a 92% and managed to drop my anatomy and physiology grade from a 96% to a 90%. I mean, regardless, I passed my classes and wound up with a 3.80 gpa for my second term. I made the Dean's List but for some reason I don't feel happy about it. I will be the first to admit that I am hard on myself when it comes to my grades. Most people would be happy to make the Dean's List. I'm not. I want to be on the President's List. But this damn depression is affecting my schoolwork. I can't concentrate on my schoolwork this term at all. I wound up having to drop algebra this term because I couldn't wrap my head around the concepts or step required to figure out [12-5(x-4)]+10(3x+y). So now I am scheduled to pick up algebra again in February's term.
So here we are 3 units into the third term and I feel as if I have hit a brick wall. I have papers due for my english class and A&P class. I know how to do them but when I sit down to actually do the work my mind goes blank and I suddenly have forgotten how to write a thesis statement or a formal proposal for a research paper. Which then leads me to a crying fit, then makes me think about my grades and fear of failure sets in, which only makes me not want to even attempt to write anything. I feel as if I am already behind (because it is now Saturday and I haven't even gotten to my discussion posts yet). My daughter had a tonsillectomy Friday and there was pre-op stuff to take care of during the week, not to mention a 45 minute drive one way to the hospital for surgery, I still feel as if I am behind.
Part of my mind tells me I can complete this week's assignments, but a bigger part of my mind tells me that there's no way I can do this. I need to get out of this depression. I just don't know how.